i guess i really am a privileged kid. i mean i always knew that... but it has home more of late. like my mother recently told me tt now uncle cheng kee has like made super alot of money so like they bot a really big nice hse with pool in bukit timah and bot a car for neil and stuff... and oso like aunty serene is like duh suoper rich with her mansion in the states (with tennis court!!) which effectively means tt both my fathers siblings are millionaires haha... but u noe wad? i thot i would feel jealous or soemthing... or like resentful tt my cousins have it so super good cos last time i used to feel tt way abt rachel and sea (aunty serenes kids). i mean i knew all along tt i had alot more than most other pple too... but i guess its like some thing inside tt the more i have the more i wanted. yah but i realised when i heard abt uncle chengkees new status i din really feel anything haha. just felt happy for them i geuss...and so grateful that God has taught me how to be happy with my lot. i look at the things i have arnd me and yes i know that there are pple with more but im just really glad that i have what i have already. and oso like.i guess i was qt an innocent kid but before i came jc i din noe tt there were really pple in the world that went all out to put others down and that there were really pple existed with so low self esteem. and like there are qt alot tt i know tt are like that and its like i hear of how some pple went through life with one hurt after another and like noone to affirm or comfort and i really really din noe tt it happened. and it made me think tt im really so lucky that ive always had friends who really cared for me and din use me, and a family that has always built me up rather than tear me down. its like i dun see how pple can actually live life like that... putting others down so callously i mean dun they feel really guilty??? so yah ok i guess im innocent and sheltered and protected... even in mg there was like some bitching and stuff but it was never really like super bad or wad... and not really abt me oso...haha. ok nvm. but i just really thank God so much! i know ive said it before but like seriously...i know that i have been blessed and i want to give thanks everyday :)